I remember why I took a break from dating. My condition never really helped whenever I was in a relationship. I’d overreact and get upset over nothing or get insanely mad over the simplest things. Maybe I never really went out with the right person or it just wasn’t the right time for me.
For some unknown reason, it’s all different this time around. It could be that I’m older now or maybe because I’ve actually learned to love myself first before I can love anyone else.
The little things that used to bother me…. I couldn’t care less about. I know I deserve respect and honesty. Just like everyone else does. Basically… I’m falling and I don’t remember ever being this happy in my life. It’s just nice knowing that someone actually cares for me.
So the other day, I took the bus to the mall.
Just like any other day that I’m bored lol
While I was at the terminal.. I sat down next to a random stranger who I have never met before ever.
We sat and talked for a while. She told me that she went to the same college I went to. She told me about her kids..
Then she started talking to me about how I put myself down. And how she just knows that I do that by only looking at me.
I guess it’s the way I carry myself.
The advice she gave me almost brought me to tears. In fucking public!
“Don’t let anyone bring you down. You’re better then this. You can do anything you want to in life. I know you can. If I can do this so can you. Next time I see you, I know you’re going to do great. I know I’m just a stranger to you but everything will fall into place. Just be yourself and don’t let anyone bring you down”.
Whenever I think of you, and I’m feeling a bit sad… I usually turn on this song. It makes me feel so much better. I know it is going to be some time before I see you again. I think of all the good memories we have had together. I just try to think of the good times. It sometimes make me sad. But usually it makes me happy.
I haven’t blogged in a while. I’ve been writing long hand instead. It just feels more natural to me. I’m thinking of transferring the long handed poems and writing on to my blog. I might do that today. Or not. Lol.
Jesus I think I love you way too much. It hasn’t even been that long. I don’t really think time really matters though. I could literally know you for only one month and still fall in love with you.
Coincidentally that is what actually happened. No idea how or why. It just happened that way. Lol.
I’m literally just putting all my thoughts right now in this post. I’ll probably not even edit the damn thing. Lol.
I was just going to write something about this song but I’m getting so into typing on my laptop it’s exciting. Lol.
No idea why but it just makes me happy. I’m in my own little world and no one is bothering me. It’s the greatest feeling ever…. Besides the feelings I get when I’m with you.
That there is the best feeling I get. Every day that I’m with you becomes the new best day of my life..
Jesus that was so cheesy. Lol.
I thought this love would last
I guess I was wrong
I fell too hard
And too fast
You just played along
Never been so happy in my life. (This isn’t even a manic happy)
So it’s Thursday July 28th 2016..
Current mood (s)
Not really much more to say.